First, the feeling of elation filled me, but it was quickly replaced by panic. Gumption picked me to write, and I couldn't have been more ecstatic. My panicked feelings came from a place of doubt ... a place I often forget still exists. I doubted whether or not I would be able to inspire you.
Days went by, ideas seemed silly, scribblings went into the trash. One thought kept entering my mind, "I'll never be able to come up with anything interesting enough." Isn't it funny how we (humans, especially women) have a tendency to beat ourselves up with fears and doubts even before we start what could be an amazing adventure?
Since before I could remember, I strongest desire to write something of substance, to share a part of myself with my readers. I wish to inspire, but what my life experience has taught me is:
- You can't let doubts and fears stop you from doing what you want, and
- To inspire others, you must first be inspired and act on that inspiration.
I grew up in a bubble. Not to say that there's anything wrong with growing up in a bubble, but my bubble kept me comfortable. I never did anything unexpected. I did just enough to get by, and fly under the radar. By the time I graduated college, it was clear I wasn't equipped with a lot of life experience or knowledge. Thankfully, life threw me a curveball in the form of meeting my future husband, KJ. Through a relationship with him, I learned not only how to trust myself, how to squelch my fears, how to drown out the voice of doubt, but also how to be inspired, and how to do something with that inspiration. It's one thing to have an idea, but it's entirely different thing to act on an idea.
Outside of my bubble there's this huge, amazing and beautiful world just waiting to be changed by the ideas of fearless women. I was the only thing holding back. I was afraid. So instead of living through my favorite novels' heroines, I started having my own adventures.
I traveled to a remote mountain village in Honduras to help build a home for a family. I spent my weekends traveling around my state, and experienced cities in a completely new way. I visited the Virgin Islands to encounter one of the most beautiful places in the world. I drove cross-country to learn how to snowboard in the mountains of Colorado.
It was in these adventures that I found myself because I no longer let fear and doubt rule me and dictate who I was. And by finding myself, I fell in love with an amazing man, and now we have the opportunity to have adventures of our own. Amy Poehler correctly stated, "You attract the right things when you have a sense of who you are."
I encourage you also to step outside your own bubbles. Stop listening to fears and doubts. Yes, fear and doubt will also be there, but to be a fearless woman is to learn how to let those fears and doubts stop ruling our emotions and actions. Find people and places and things that inspire you and in turn, inspire others!